27th August 2002

It is very nearly the end of the month and in particular the end of August, traditionally my favourite month, although I think this has something to do with a birthday and summer holidays as a child.

This year however I’m looking forward. Looking forward to when the love of my life comes to visit me. If all goes well then hopefully I will be living in the USA this time next year. I say hopefully as it depends on getting a visa, which I have written to the US embassy about today and if Erin will still have me. I worry that although I love her with every bit of my heart that she doesn’t feel as strongly for me as I do about her. I guess that is one of the feelings you get when you’re in love. Time will tell.

Thinking about it, being with Erin is what I want. I could do without my friends, my possessions and the way of life I know, but not without Erin. Another sign of being in love I guess. I hope everything will be here so that I can come back and visit someday though!

Some may say I’m being deeper than normal, more thoughtful, more emotional. The strange thing is that I’m not feeling anything much beyond love and longing today. No irritation, no madness, no hunger, no happiness etc (you kind of get the idea). I put this down to too much sleep. Although I guess the sleep was necessary.

It has been a bank holiday weekend, which is always welcome. The weather for the most part was agreeable. I didn’t do anything too exciting, with shopping for Sarah’s present about as exciting as it got on Saturday, although I was up til 4:30 watching Die Hard 2 and then watching it with the directors commentary. Die Hard 2 is set at Washington Dulles Airport, an airport I passed through back in June. I remember the filmed Dulles looking nothing like the Dulles I know, even considering the amount of snow in the film. I wanted to know where the film had been filmed. Los Angeles and Denver if you are at all interested.

On Sunday I went to Sarah’s birthday party which involved sitting around for a while. I wasn’t in the mood for drinking so just had cola all day. I did get to see Dawn and her new lil baby. I haven’t seen Dawn since I left university if I remember rightly. In the evening a few of us went to see Lee Hurst who was pretty funny, the ticket was a birthday present from Del and Jo. I got another present this weekend also. The Arsenal shirt that I was supposed to get two weeks ago, yay!

And they were the highlights of the week. I did manage to convince Del to take me to play golf on Monday. Something I hadn’t done for ages and wanted to do again. Badminton on Wednesday was more energetic than normal with just three of us playing the Commonwealth games rules.

I’ve started having weird dreams again which I have done my best to record. I wonder what my brain is trying to tell me.